HELLO again.

it has literally been forever. It feels like forever. We currently live in Salem. I hate it here. We want to move back in the next month or so. How can I hate it there so much and hate it here enough to go back? This seems so bizarre to me. Chris and I have been getting along. Yet I still question sometimes. I don't know why. He would be so hurt if he knew that... I want to make our lives stronger together but everything seems to pull us apart. Oh and we are having a baby. I am due in October. I was scared and sad....but now I am excited. A new little baby, a sweet face to love. I never have ever felt like babies bring people together, it just makes it more of a challenge. I hope that isn't the case...like make you or break you...I want to feel the strength of love pulling me in and not the confusion pulling me away. I hope I am not the only one who has ever felt like this. Back and forth over and over. I wish I would never question.