Well it is official. I have been told by someone else, that I have changed. I have recently spoken with a friend who I haven't seen in 10 years. ...and guess what...I have been informed that I am not the same. I have changed. So it is not only me who feels that way. Its kinda nice to know that is isn't just me imagining it. but then again...do I really want it confirmed? No. I tried to explain it to Chris the other night. Don't think he understands me. I told him that I feel like I am living this life as a different person...its not really me. I have lost myself. which is sad to say. I explained that I don't have anything that I enjoy. I know what he enjoys doing...but don't even know what I enjoy. That is ridiculous. I don't know what has made me change..but I am pretty sure I am not okay with it. I know I know...again with the same old crap...but It seem relevant since it was confirmed by someone else. I am tired of feeling bad..I want to be happy. I want to change...but what? Someone help me.
I have decided to go to a parenting class. Hopefully that will help me decipher between Tara and "mom". At least its something...got to start somewhere right?
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