I will make it ok.

Well it has been a while. I am trying to decided what to blog about. Most recently...Chris has a new job. He should be there on the 15th of October...In Colorado. Yes you read it right. Colorado. I am exciting yet nervous yet more exciting...and still trying to not be too excited. I don't want to be too excited because I don't want to get my hopes up. So Chris is going to go, start his job, check things out. Make sure that this is what he wants. Then later we will go. It makes me nervous. I have never lived that far away from my family before. But as they say....Fear is what prevents you from achieving greatness. If you are afraid of trying new things...you will never get to where you want to be. So I am trying to be supportive, excited, happy for something new. Even though sometimes I feel that I need my family....I need their support.
You know how there are things you know you should be doing or not doing. So is it easier when there is someone there to encourage or to be on your own to make decisions based on choices you make? I have tried the encouragement side. But what if it gets worse when I am away from everyone I know. Ok I want to cry now. I am worried I will be sad, lonely and make not the best decisions because of those things.
I have to stop thinking that way. Think positive. Know that everything will be fine. I will make it ok. I feel that certain feeling in my chest of worry, nervousness, and over all anxiety. Back to medication. I have been slacking on making sure I take it. I need to make sure. Especially with all this.